It's so easy to be cynical, So swiftly am I clinical, Robbing wonder from all that I do see Turning palisaides to bamboo stalks, Safari treks to daytime jaunts, I slowly bleed away the infant once in me For I'd love to sit and think and stare To dance with the king 'ere he ever there TO folly in the mauve fields of nowhere As the child I killed could see As the child I killed could see Ignorance breeds a fear I know The Dark to I no longer go For 'tis he home for the Boggart and the Wraith For 'tis but the photon's dance And a nonreflective chance And Dark is now but shadows in my own day To seek solace under blanket tomb Enveloping arms as mother's womb I am too large, there's but no room But the child I killed could be Yes, the child I killed could be Developing life and lusts of red, Pinch, push, fall and knock on head I fall past it all from innocence To cadence and flow within my mind As the night to mourn doth unwind And I smell tiredness' musk incense To wonder a million years and ask within the day For bastions of everything and not but jars of clay To amble in an effervescent, carefree so way For that child I killed, you see The child I killed is me - The Child I Killed (c) Talen, 2001 'A song for Michael, Leighton, John, and Chris.'